hey guys. i'm feeling alittle gloomy now. hmm. well. i guess if you wanna continue doing that go ahead. nothing's stoping you. i pray for you night and day,i place you second in my heart above all,i did all i could to hold you back,but nth seem to work. you didn't care how i feel. you look for me when you needed help. sometimes,i doubt you. but at times,i trust you. i tried everything to keep you but you ran further away. you change day by day and year by year. you're not whom i know before. i don't even think i know you. you became colded and meaner?you said " i'll always be here for you" i trusted you and look for you when i needed someone to talk to. but you turn me down everytime i seek for you.Your voice keeps ringing in my head,i miss you. but i guess you didn't.i seek for the reason of all this but i can't find it. i guess the problem lies with you. and you wanted to run away.you tore a hole in my heart. i cried,i scream i shout but nothing seem to work.so i cried myslf to sleep every night. the pain of losing you was too much. the truth hurts, yes it did. but i guess you didn't care. well. i have to be strong. i guess it's over. idk what i can do. i'm willing to give you a chance but will you be willing to give it a try? it's all up to you. this is all i can say for now. i'll never forget the pain and the hole you tore in my heart. and i'll never forget the time i met you. it's locked in my heart.
okay byes
xoxo,kat
p.s. I loathe YOU
zzz. people. i hate d and t. ehmagawd i have so many things to do. i have to finish my d and t if not one demerit point. tsk oh gosh.there's so much to do yet so little time. oh man. well i better stop blogging before i forget to do my work. kays. bye peeps:)
nights,sweet dreams
xoxo,kat
hey guys. today was damn funny. oh ytd jerilyn and kelley came to my house:D haha. hmm. i feel like a bad bad girl. nowadays,i'm not listening in class. haha. been ahem so of you might know. haha.today stupid ape roshini made me fall ont eh floor. i was chasing mahdubala with the broom. haha. cos jasmine took ape's bag so i took the broom and pretended to sweep the floor. then jasmine went out to put roshini's bag on top of the lockers. haha.then they attempted to take jas's bag haha.i took the broom and shoo them away.mdm baldev made me to put the broom away and made me to stand beside the broom till school ends. haha damn funny. but i sneaked away and went to sit down. haha. kays. i gtg now. got tuition. Shyt. tsk.
byes
xoxo,kat




wy is your bf? hahaha so funny
Hey guys! thanks a million lot:D ily!<3 non-les! haha. tks rly tks. everything is getting better. hahaha. rly THANK YOU CHONG WEI YAN,JIA YAN AND ANNABEL. ILY GUYS! NON LES. HAHA. okay gtg now sorry. byes!
xoxo,kat
I'm sitting around,hoping,praying that tmr would be a better day.
thanks for giving me another chance ily:D you know who you are.<3 non les
well,life isit getting better. each and everyday is getting hmm worse? idk. but things are drifting apart. Kelley said hi. okay back to th main point. jasmine is here. she says die. okay back to the point. well i didn't mean to lie to you. i had to. i know it's very mean. but rly. you are one person that can brighten up my day and make me smile non les. rly. and i said sorry i rly mean it. (I swear, she means it (: She told me, haha. Btw, this is Jasmine the so awesome pwnage queen Flowerstalk-Bubblegumjuice) I think I know who you are btw, (: it wasn't easy to come up with a decision and facing reality. i thought you would understand this. well. i guess.. i don't just say sorry for the sake of saying sorry. after i rly think it over i realise i wasn't rdy yet. and because i had you in mind that's why i told you that i wasn't rdy to forgive. if i didn't bother to care how you're feeling or what i would not have told you. rly. believe it or not. there's nothing i can do about it. if you think i'm sincere,then i'm sure you'll understand everything that i said and you'll believe me. if not,i can't do anything. i know i lied. and that's the fact that cannot be change i know. but. rly. this time is for real. okay SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY. I REALLY MEAN IT NOW. okay gtg now. byes.
sitting,waiting,hoping that tmr would be a better day
xoxo,kat
As The Sun Sets
In The Sky,
Tears May Pass You By.
As Leaves Begin To Fall,
You Might Not Know At All,
But I Am Here For You.
As The Winds Whisper To The Trees,
"I Hope You'll Never Leave.
"As The Stars Shine Through And Through,
You May Not Know It's True,
But I Am Here For You.
As The Winter Days Fade Away,
You Don't Know If You Might Stay.
As Spring Clouds Tease The Breeze,
Raindrops Tend To Seize.
But I Am Here For You.
As The Summer Sky Turns Pink,
As Your Heart Begins To Sink.
As Time Slows To A Beat,
You May Feel The Defeat.
But I Am Here For You.
As The Days Pass On By,
If You Feel You Want To Die.
As Your Feelings Turn Ruth,
Just Remember The Truth.
I Am Here For You.
it's a best friend poem. OMG i'm so arghh. nvm
okay gtg now byes
xoxo,kat
i want to soar on wings like eagles.
Friends are just like balloons.
They bring you joy.
They bring you laughter
They take away the sorrow,the pain that hinders within
Now,
the winds came by
They encouraged me to hold on tight to my balloon for fear that I would lose it
I closed my eyes and prayed
That I would never lose it
That I would never let it go
That I would keep it with me forever
I opened my eyes
And was given a harsh reality check
The winds carried my balloon
Far up into the sky
I had climbed up to the tallest tree
To the highest mountain
Reaching for the skies
Trying to catch hold off
My beloved balloon
I tried calling it back but
The winds drowned my voice
I tried to jump and catch it
But it was out of reach
I tried begging and bargaining with God
But I only hear my echos but no answer
I sat on the ground, crying
Trying to hide the pain of my loss
Loss of my source of joy
Can't bear to let go yet'
Cause one minute it's here,it's gone the next
Finally,
A decision is made
I lifted my head and
There it is, floating up there
High up in the skies
Free of cares
I felt the warmth of sun rays shining on me
I wiped my tear-stained eyes and
Put on a brave face
As I watched my balloon floating away
Suddenly,
It doesn't seem to hard
No matter how hard I try to get it back
I'll never succeed
If I hold on too tight
The pain will just get worse
The solution is easy
I'll just simply look up and
Wave goodbye
No pain
No tears
And that's how I grew up
it's super nice right? haha.
well this few days,there has been ALOT of problems
really alot. people has been fighting in class. it's getting out of hand. and i apparently is the peacemaker:D haha. i'm not helping or siding any of the party. like i said i'm the middleman.
rly. i'm actually helping ppl solve their problems when i haven't solve my own problem. weird right? i knw.it's complicated. life has been like a rollar coaster ride for me. rly. it's tough. ups and it's downs has it's turn. i wanna scream i wanna cry. it's tough. my life is bumpy.BUT i have to be strong because i'm on my own. I HAVE TO BE STRONG. wait there's another poem i wanna post.
I told myself this was it, and that's it.
My resolution crumbles all over again.
Sometimes it's just damn hard telling yourself;
it's your fault and you know it.
It's hard to accept that what we did caused a certain consequence.
And now that the circumstance turns its back and slaps you in the face,
it's like a double blow.
But no matter how bad it seems everything is now,
I know few years down the road,
I'm gonna look back and think,
I'm glad I did that.
And I'm glad I did it.
somebody pls talk to me yeah? pls. i don't wanna disturb you guys but yeah talk to me yeah? i'm not gonna break down. don't worry. i will be STRONG. i will be. cos God is the strength of my heart:D OMGOSH. i'm sounding so holy. sry guys.. lol
okay gtg now. so yeah. bye
xoxo,kat
It takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.
hey guys. hmm. i'm afraid my friends can't read what i'm saying cos they're thai:D but they're SUPER AWESOME. haha. they're rly nice:):0 haha. hmmm. i miss them ALOT. haha was talking to them on the phone just now. mos,fill haha. i miss you guys. lol okay gtg now byes
xoxoxo,kat